Doing good...

I had two appointments this week. One was an ultrasound and education then the second was to actually meet with the doctor.
My ultrasound went well. Baby A no longer has a heartbeat and was getting much smaller. The sac was almost empty. This baby is now referred to as a "vanishing twin." Now we wait for the sac to disappear completely. Baby B looked great. The heartbeat was 176 and it moved again for us :) It was measuring 8 weeks even which is exactly where I was! This was a very cool ultrasound because Matt and I got to hear the baby's heartbeat this time (before we had just seen it).

Isn't it cute!?!?!!?

In other news my cysts were still huge although in looking at the measurements, they look slightly smaller. The ultrasound tech was a little surprised by the size, it was all normal for me ;)

Today, my appointment was with Dr. Bemenderfer. I was really excited about this. Since I haven't been at work, I haven't been able to see/talk with her about all this. Plus, Matt hadn't met her yet and I wanted that to happen. All went well with her. She wants to do another ultrasound in 2 weeks to check on Baby A's sac and my cysts, then I am normal OB care from there.
I return to work on August 9th. I am excited. While work is exhausting most of the time and I rarely have time to stop and pee or eat, it will give me something to do to make time fly. Sitting at home by myself, time seems to crawl....

That's all for now....will update soon!

A Sad Day

It has been a long week since my last ultrasound. I couldn't sleep all night Sunday night because I was too uncomfortable. Then I woke up Monday to a lot of pain on my left side that wouldn't go away. I called the doctor and he had me come in for a look. I figured it had to do with my cysts on my ovaries...and I was right. They were huge! While he was in there it looked at the babies too and Baby A's heartbeat was better at 126 and Baby B's was around the same. I was happy, in pain but happy :) I left there with my note for work saying I couldn't work for the next couple of days to give my body a chance to rest and not rupture my cysts. The pain got better....

Last night I tossed and turned in bed. I would be fine one minute and then get these shooting pains all over my abdomen. There was a couple of times I sat right up in bed and woke up Matt. I was supposed to work today, at about 3 am I knew I probably wasn't going in. I called work and apologized because I knew we were so short staffed...I felt bad. I had another ultrasound first thing this morning. I was excited to get to see the twins but I was hoping he had some insight into the pain I was having....he did. As soon as he put the ultrasound in, I knew something was wrong. Baby B was there and big and I could see its little heart just a beating away. Then right above B was A and it looked much smaller (although now it looked like a little gummie bear) and I could see the heartbeat and it looked slow. He went right to them. Baby A's heart beat was only 44 (way to slow for my non-nurse friends), Baby B was 155 and baby B actually moved while we were looking at it. He didn't say anything at first but I knew what he was thinking. Also right below baby A was an area of bleeding (up to this point I have had no bleeding). He told me that baby A was probably dying and I would start bleeding/cramping soon. My heart just sank. Ever since Monday I was becoming hopeful that they would both be fine. The hope is that I will bleed once A is ready to let go and B will just kind of push on over and be fine and my body will absorb A. He told me no work for the next two weeks as it should happen sometime soon. He thinks the pain I am feeling across my belly has a lot to do with it.

Here is probably the final picture we will have of both of them.

Matt kept asking me how I was feeling....I am still unsure. I am sad and really wish I had never seen A's heartbeat or little body as that just makes it so much harder for me. I just picture that poor little baby in there that I can't do anything to help. I do believe that this wouldn't be happening unless it was supposed to. My body knows.

Now we wait for nature to do its thing.
Today was my last appointment with Dr. Carnovale, I am sad to be leaving their office. I have been there almost once a week for the past two years....weird! I scheduled my first OB appointment with Dr. Bemenderfer for next Wednesday and Thursday. I will post more then.

Thank you everyone for all your thoughts and prayers

Our Little Miracles

I couldn't sleep last night, I was too excited. I got up and went to work and went about my daily routine. I constantly kept looking at my watch to see what time it was (time was passing soo slow).  Finally it was time for me to leave and make the long (not really) walk to Dr. Carnovale's office. I informed everyone on the unit that needed to know I was leaving and set off!
I was surprised when I got there to see Matt there and waiting (the man is never on time)! The took us right in and everyone had big smiles on their faces! I loved it.
Once I was all ready we began the ultrasound. It was a vaginal ultrasound for those of you that do not already know that. He asked me before he started if I thought there was one or two....I had no clue. We had peeked at work using the abdominal ultrasound, but weren't sure what we were looking at! As soon as he stuck it in we got our answer....TWINS!
Matt and I looked stunned, I am sure. I just kept looking at the screen and seeing two sacks and I was in awe (still am). According to the doctor I am 6 weeks and 5 days (which is more than I thought). I do have a lot of cysts again (go figure) and we are going to keep an eye on them.

This is Twin A. My computer won't flip it around...sorry. This baby is measuring a little small at 5 weeks and 1 day. The heartbeat was a little slow at 89 as well. We are going to keep an eye on it and hope it continues to progress!

This is Twin B. It was measuring 6 weeks and 1 day (so close) and the heartbeat was better at 111. Look at the head on that one!

Matt and I are hopeful that everything turns out okay with both of them. We do know that if something does happen it was meant to be though.

So far I feel okay. I have good days and bad ones. The last two have been fine. I am always VERY tired and slightly nauseated. I will take it for now, I am sure it will get worse!

I have and ultrasound again next Friday at 8 am.....I will post more pics!