First, Luke....he is about to be 21 months. I can't believe we will soon be celebrating his 2nd Birthday! I love him to pieces and can't imagine my life without him. He is doing well. He still isn't sitting/crawling/walking yet. We see physical therapy and occupational therapy weekly. He hates therapy, but it does help him. We recently met with some equipment people at Riley to discuss his needs. We ordered a bath seat (since the one he uses now is an infant seat and he will soon bounce out of it) and some foamy things to help position him when needed. We looked at and discussed wheelchairs. This was heartbreaking for me. I have always known that Luke may need assistance with walking, etc...but this made it all hit me front and center. It was hard to look at it, all I could picture was him sitting in it helpless and sad. We decided that a wheelchair wasn't needed yet and we will revisit it next year.
Luke's Likes.....
1. Food: The boy can't get enough. Now that he pretty much eats what we eat, he wants to all the time! We love having him try new things and seeing some of the faces he makes is priceless.
2. Walks: Daddy and Luke go for a walk just about every night (weather permitting). He is so content when out walking.
3. Talking: Now that he knows how, he does it all the time! We may not be able to understand him all the time but that doesn't stop him! Current words: Bye-bye, hi, mommy, Luke, night-night, thank you, truck, no, ba-ba, book, ball, Ellie (elephant toy)
Luke's Dislikes....
1. Being left alone in a room. Just don't do it.
2. Waiting for his food. It better be ready when you put him in his high chair or he will scream!
3. His glasses, he has a love/hate relationship with those.
4. Shoes. I try and put them on him all the time to keep him from curling his toes!
Recently, I decided it was time for me to go see someone to talk about my depression/anxiety. It has been getting worse for a while. Matt is a great husband/daddy, but sometimes he just doesn't get it. I feel like the an awful mommy because while everyone else wishes they could stay home from work with their kids, I am the exact opposite. I HATE staying home with Luke. I love going to work and wish I could work more. I am constantly worrying about money and how we are going to do this or afford this. I am worried Luke won't ever walk, and that upsets me. This is just not what I imagined for my baby. I wanted his life to be amazing and great. Not hard. Matt hates that I am so depressed because I want to sleep all the time when he is home. It is all really starting to build. So about three weeks ago I met with Dr. Stone here in Indy and have been seeing her just about once a week. She has had many great suggestions, one of which was to post more on this blog. She can tell that I am not one to tell everyone all about my emotional needs. She is hoping that by doing this people will see the support I need, because she knows I won't ask.
I am going to try and post more from now on!
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